So.There

First of all I just wanted to let you know that I am truly sorry about everything. Do you realize that I basically went crazy when you broke up with me..no one knows this but your best friend. I wanted to kill myself over you. It is just too painful to have to live without you. Really though you don't know how bad you hurt me, I'm not trying to make you feel bad, but how could you have laughed at me well I was crying over you that one day in class.. and you wonder why my friends hate you.

I didn't want to break up with you at all, it was your choice and if you don't love me anymore I can't change that. I've tried so many times to work things out with you, but you don't seem to have the time to even try to work things out. And you know how you always call me and talk about other girls, please don't do that to me, I try to be nice about it but I can't stand you trying to make me jealous all the time. I'm trying so hard to be friends with you, because that's what you want right? But its like one day you call me and are all nice then the next day you ignore me.. last time I checked people don't usually ignore their friends. It's killing me to just be your friend, but if I can't have you then I guess friends will have to be good enough. I'm still so hurt and there is so many things I wanna know, like why did you ask me back out that one night.. then lie about it when your new girlfriend came back? But like I said earlier you don't have time to talk to me so I guess all my questions will always go unanswered. What really hurts me is the fact that you have never once said you are sorry, but don't bother now cause I know you wouldn't mean it.

I miss you so much, I miss being with you every weekend, I miss talking to you on the phone all night, I guess I just miss everything about you. I wish I could just have another chance with you. It's been almost two months since we broke up but I still think about you all the time. But I know you are gone forever and that I can never have you back, but I hope you are happy. I will always love you.