I have decided that it's time to sit down and write you all the things I have wanted to tell you for so long. There have been so many things bothering me for the past few months. Therefore, I am finally going to get out all I have wanted to say.

I have forgiven you. It was hard, oh God, was it hard. I have never felt so much hate, so much betrayal, or so much hurt, from one person alone. The very thought of you made me cringe. But, after much thought, I have forgiven you. I thought by doing so, it would finally free my soul from all this. And, in ways, it has.

For so long, we were close. We were best friends. I thought of you as this beautiful person that I had somehow managed to have in my life. You were someone who understood me and cared about what I was feeling. Never though, had I thought that that same person could become my worst enemy.

I don't quite know how you did it. How you still continue to do. You manipulated me. You got everything you wanted- the guys, the friends, the popularity. Only you got it by lies and deceit. You became this black hearted, selfish, back stabbing bitch who cared for no one but herself. And everyone fell for all your lies. Everyone always forgave you, always put their trust in you once again. And as before, you took advantage of that trust, and used it for your own pleasure.

It never seemed to bother you that you used people. You once told me to 'Choose favorites,' and take sides between my parents. You stole your friends boyfriends. You made Nic feel sorry for you, because Greg had died. You said he was your best friend. Maybe so, but the definition of a 'best friend' never seemed to fit into you and Greg's relationship. I don't doubt that you loved him. In fact, I know you did. We all did. But I hated that you used his death for sympathy. Maybe you hadn't realized it, but that's what you did. It didn't matter that to get what you wanted, you had to hurt the people you claimed to 'love.' I'm sorry, but love doesn't work that way.

I'm sorry you never truly learned how to cherish what you had. I hope one day you'll learn that your family and friends will be your most valuable possession in life. And when you realize that guys aren't worth losing everything for, then I know you will see the value of your loved ones. I just hope it won't be to late for you then. I hope you will still have family and friends to care for.

As for me, I can never, ever trust you again. We won't be close again, we won't talk regularly, and we won't share secrets. You can only take so much from someone, and then you learn to never trust that person again. I hope one day I can look at you and see you as just another person trying to get through this hard place called life. But for now, I just see this cold-hearted girl, that has hurt me beyond measure.

I hope you have a good life, Mari. I hope you get everything you want out of life- Money, fame, love, whatever it might be. I just don't want to have to deal with you anymore.

Goodbye,

Amber