Well ... this is certainly not an easy thing to say. Not an easy thing to know when or where is the right time and place. I remember watching TV shows and movies and laughing at the characters because I thought, it wouldn't be THAT hard. If they love you, they'll understand.

Well ... now's the time to test that. I think even then I knew, but ... I just didn't want to deal with it. I told myself that if I ignored it, I could suppress this moment.

I'm bisexual. I always have been, ever since I could remember. Sure, I found the Ralph Lauren models attractive (ok, not really - those muscled-up guys aren't my type), but I've also always thought Tori Amos was beautiful. Not in a "oh, she's pretty," benign sort of way, but ... I had a crush on her. On a woman.

I've only started coming out this last year. Since I went to college, it's easier for me to let people know after I've known them for a while - it's nothing new to them. Although that's scary, every time (even with my gay friends, you never know), it's nothing like this. I don't know if you understand, if you think it's some kind of phase or if you just think that I'm doing something wrong.

The problem with being bisexual is that rejection occurs in both the gay and straight communities. Nobody likes a person who sits in the middle of the road. Mom, I remember when I was younger and we were talking about homosexuality and you said that the only thing you just couldn't understand was bisexuality. That the people should just pick a gender and stick with it.

Well, it's not really that easy. I've been denying half of the population of the world, who I am attracted to about as often as I am to men, just because I was scared to admit how I felt. Well, I'm not scared anymore.

I'm lying. I'm scared to death. I'm scared that you will both not know how to deal with this, that you'll cut me out of your lives for a while. It's not like I have a girlfriend or anything right now (although there is a girl that I have a little crush on), but ... what if I do? What will you say when I tell you?

I know you'll always love me. But will you always talk to me?

No matter what happens, I love you both...