You know, I never thought I would do this to myself. I always thought that love was the way they make it out to be in the movies-- a little scary, maybe even confusing, but everything always worked out in the end. I don't know if everything's going to work out for us that way, even though I would give everything that I have for it to happen.

The first time I saw you, my jaw dropped. You weren't the most attractive person I had ever seen, but there was just something about you that I wanted to get to know better. When we started dating, I was the happiest that I have ever been with a guy. I mean that. When we broke up, I felt like a part of me had been ripped out of my chest. I was miserable for such a long time after that. The second time around, I just became numb. I let the gaping hole that you ripped into my heart scab over. . .nevermind that the scab fell off every time I saw you. You made me feel complete, like a better person. Isn't that what love is supposed to be all about?

I don't know if you realize how much I want to be with you. I don't know if you feel the same way. All I know is that whenever I'm with you, nothing else matters anymore. You're the only person in this world that "gets" me, the only person in this entire world that I can truly be myself with. Isn't that love?

When you kissed me last Thursday, I got my hopes up, yet again. Now you tell me that your best friend likes me, so you don't want to hurt him by being with me. I don't care about your best friend. I know that sounds harsh, but that's the way it is. All I want is you. I don't want you to change, I don't want you to buy me things (like she did), I don't want you to do anything but just be with me.

I love you.

Always and forever your jalepeņo girl,