I had a lot of fun when we went to the MxPx concert months ago in Orlando, when I met you. I have fun talking to you online also. I have to be honest with you though, and I don't think I can. I don't want to hurt such a beautiful, sweet girl. I don't love you. I never have, and I don't think I ever will.

I feel so bad, because I feel I can't lead you on anymore. We can never be together. I just can't care for you like that. I feel so bad because I remember how Irene treated me. She told me she loved me.. and after two years she just broke my heart. I found out she never cared about me at all. It hurt so much.

I don't want to be a hypocrite. I can't be something I'm not to you. I feel so bad, but I can't force something like this. You're so carefree, so naive. You've had relationships before but you just don't understand. You'll never understand.

I've would have turned into Irene, Rayssa, if I let this go on. I can't just lead you along like this anymore, but I can't bring myself to telling you. You tell me you love me. I asked you twenty minutes ago if you still "loved, loved me", you said you did. How can you love me? You don't even know what I really feel.

Everytime you tell me you love me, I feel a sting of guilt. I hesitate when I respond, because I really don't mean it. I never have, and I never will. I'm going to make things easier now so I don't have to deal with the consequences later. You don't know how bad I feel. I'm just sorry.

You're a beautiful girl Rayssa. That's why I like you. If we ever had a relationship, I wouldn't like you enough to love you. It would be entirely physical. I respect you and care for you enough to prevent it from happening, because I know you love me and it will only hurt you so much more later. I hope you can respect me for that.

You have been a great friend for me. You were there for me when Irene broke my heart. You were there with me at my darkest hours. I have no way to repay everything you've done for me. So I won't start by breaking your heart.

I'm not ready for love again. I can't fool myself or you. I hope you can forgive me. I can't tell you this because whenever I try to be honest with you, you get so pissy at me. You stop talking and act like a bitch. It is so hard to be honest with you, and I am non-confrontational by nature. I hope you understand baby, Rayssa.

I hope you find a guy someday that you will love, and that can love you back. I'm sorry, I can't force something if it justisn'tt right. There is nothing wrong with you at all. So don't even think that. I feel like such a piece of crap, but this is what I have to do. Be my good friend Rayssa. Forgive me.

Always,