19 July, 1999
  Danny-
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Chances are you'll never get this letter. I've intended it that way. I just don't really have the courage to tell you how I feel. So I have to resort to a computer screen that offers little comfort.

I like you Danny. A lot. Maybe it seems a little premature. I mean, I've known you what? A week? But you've... captivated me. To say the least.

If it hadn't been for you, I'm fairly sure I would have just spent that day on the couch reading. I would have been acknowledged by the other guys as that strange girl in the tiara and faery wings. The daughter of Margaret's friend. But it would have stopped there. It generally does.

I found it extremely amusing when you turned around and saw me sitting there. Did you honestly not realize there was a stranger in the room? But you introduced yourself. You seemed nice enough. Of course, you did help them drag me into the pool... That was okay though, because you lured me out of my shell with all your flirting. It was all just harmless flirting between us... right? I wish I could convince myself of that. I've tried so hard to focus on something else.

But I can't get you out of my mind.

I feel like I've really connected with you. I mean, I've only seen you twice. And I've talked to you on the phone a few times. But that's it. I shouldn't feel this way. Don't get me wrong, I'm not by nature a very logical person. But logic is screaming in my ear that this isn't supposed to happen. I'm not supposed to feel this way about someone I hardly know.

But then, as I said. I've never really been a very logical person. I know you like me. If I couldn't figure it out for myself, everyone else has pointed it out to me. It's quite obvious. But the question is, just how much do you like me?

You aren't the reason I decided I need to break up with Johnny. That was based on a multitude of other experiences. But you were the deciding factor. I realized that, if there are guys like you out there, I can't tie myself down to my current boyfriend.

I really do love him. But he lacks the passion, the understanding you posses. You have all the important things I look for in a guy. And I don't mean physical appearance. I mean you have that incredible personality that draws me in. And I like that.

Only, what is going on between us? There's something there. You can't deny it. But is it merely a physical attraction? Or does it go beyond that?..

I know you have your girlfriend. Marina. Or whatever the hell her name is. I think I've deliberately blocked it out so as not to think about the girl who can claim you as her own. But what exactly is your relationship with her?

She lives in NYC. You live in upstate CT. That's a few hours away. You say you don't really talk to her. That when you see her, you guys just sit there.. and occasionally "attack" each other. In fact, you said you're not even really going out. It hasn't even been a month since your first encounter. And you referred to it as a "tryst"...?

What does this mean?

But then, I guess all I'm really trying to say is, I like you so much. And I just want to know if you think it's worth giving it shot. Because I sure do.

Take care Danny. You're a wonderful guy.

All my Potential Love,

Lauralee


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