So how long has it been? I'd say about a year. As we were happy together as one, we could not stand to be together as two. Whatever happened to all we shared. I still remember the first day, when you brought me 3 big beautiful roses and a bear for me on Valentine's Day. Your dimples were so big, and from that I knew that I loved you. Then a couple months later we were still going good and happy.
As we finally decided to lay beside each other, and share the one thing that was deepest to each other, I still felt the love for you. The way you would hold me, or even the little touches, helped me get through the day. The trust we had within our hearts, I thought that we would never part.
Then the day came when we couldn't handle what we thought we
could , commitment. How sad we were both, but happy that we were still friends. I cried every night for a month, I was afraid that you would fall in love with a person who didn't care as much as I did.
I then thought that I had found my next lover, but it was only a mirage. It wasn't what I thought, because I only thought of you the whole time. You were compared to him, and I realized that you had now hated me for whom I was with. Was it too late? Was it meant to be, but we just never tried as hard as we could've?
I often think of you, and how you are doing. I sometimes want to call you just to say hi, but afraid that you still hate me. I want to say sorry, for not believing you when you said, "I love you", for hurting you, and upsetting you.
When I remember all the good times we shared, my heartaches and I yearn for your forgiveness. I just want to let you know that you will always have a special place in my heart, and through all the harsh things I've said to you, I'm sorry.
Sincerely,
Liz
