Oh boy. Four in the morning... remember last summer how we used to talk until four in the morning? My dad used to come into my room and yell at me for still being up. It's precisely 3:52AM on a very early June 13th. A Sunday. Though you probably don't care, I decided I was going to tell you what's been going on in my life lately.

Things have really changed for me - and for the better. I'm a lot happier lately than I have been in the past few years, and I guess I can partially attribute that to more sleep, but also to the changes I've made in my life. I'm going out more, seeing my friends... no, I don't have a boyfriend. I think I'm still in love with you. That sounds so lame... but it's true. Psychotic obsessed girl, I can just _see_ you thinking that. Anyway. As I was saying, I'm going out a lot more. I'm actually going to pass grade 10 which is something really big to me because I've been working my ass of for the past few weeks to try and finish around the beginning of July. I have 15 finals, and already 8 are out of the way - I'm doing two a week. I'm 2/3 finished my school year, and at the rate that I'm going, I should be finished my homeschool within the next three weeks.

I'm going back to public school next year, another huge step. I remember when I couldn't handle people. You know something, you really helped me get through some of the hard times in my life. You always cheered me up, always had something nice to say. And _always_ had a naughty innuendo to everything you said. You made me laugh. And the one thing that I've always held close - and yeah, I'm going to quote you on this one - to my heart was: "I do love you, believe this, you make me feel good, about life, about it all, and I hate life, more than anything..."

I'm going up to Vernon at the end of June, early July. I wish we could have seen each other this summer, but as I've realized, we've grown apart. I guess what they say is true, you don't know what you've got... till it's gone. I really miss you. I really wish we could talk more... and Cameron?

I really love you.