I didn't have the chance to tell you many things. So I am writing to you. After all I was always better at writing than expressing my thoughts and feelings in words.

I think that all these years I was making my way to you. I don't know if I'll ever see you again, lay my eyes on this angel face of yours. Touch you. Oh god, I could sell my soul for that.

Two days. Two days of my life and it seems like decades. It's strange how can a person change in such a short time. You've made me a completely new person. My old world collapsed and there was a new bright world waiting for me out there. A lightning, that's what you brought.

You know, when I left that morning, I cried all the way home. But not from sadness. It was one of this moments that you burst into tears from happiness. Was I reborn? I don't know. I felt that way. It was like you have given all the treasure of the world to me.

You were a fountain of passion, creativity, love and affection. I also learned from you that love is not really what I thought it was till now. Love is pure, without the feeling of possesion. There is no envy. No demand. No expectation. Just two souls that join. And there is not really a distance. One man's thought can eliminate it.

I still feel your warm body. My soul is reaching for you frequently. You are always coming to my call. As you approach I am stunned by the glance of your deep blue eyes. The depth of them. You see, I never really left you. I am always there, watching you sleep, getting ready for work, laughing. I close my eyes and I hear you whispering "Of course I know you are here, I was waiting for you" ...

I don't know why you have changed so much lately. Perhaps you had a suspicion that there will be another man in my life. Honestly, no one could come between us. Or perhaps it was all these feelings I expressed, that made you scared. I apologize but that's how I am. I always feel the need to express my self. I want you to know that I am glad I met you, even if we can't ever be together again. That's the kind of love I feel. You don't have to do anything for me. I am not expecting you to do anything unless you want it. Just be there like you always were. Be the person I met. I don't ask much. But you don't have to turn around or shut the door because you can't give more or you don't want to. I can live with that. You have already given me enough. The only thing I want is to preserve what we had.

I need the power of your spirit.

I hope the day you will understand I am not far away.

No matter what, thank you my love.

Dearly to A.P.

Sophia