You told me why you broke up with me. Long distance relationships
never work out. Yeah. I am not about to dwell on the events that took
place. You were there. Just when you told me that, I felt my heart stop
pumping and all the blood in my body stopped in my throat clogging it up and
my tears did not flow until after you left. I cried so much, it is
indescribable. I have cried myself dry. People say that sometimes and then
they start up, but I have literally done it physically. I can't cry.
Think of when your watching the sky and the starts start twinkling.
Getting light and dark at the same time. Falling stars. Shooting through the
sky's, searching for their soul mate. When I met you, I felt like all the
stars were in my heart and they were all falling at once and crashing into my
soul. You were my soul mate. You are my soul mate. Some people would tell
me to move on, but I can't. I have found you, and lost you. But there's
only one special person for every person in the world. You may love someone
else, but there's only one special person that will always make you smile
when they see you.
ONE person. If you find that person it's unbelievably wonderful. But
to think that the one person in the world that you truly love and care for
abandons you and says they don't care about you......... I'll put it in
terms you understand Scott. You came and freed my from my chains, tied me up
with rope and set me on fire, burning me alive. I wouldn't expect someone I
love to do that, but a major wake up call came.
I loved you and you left. I love you and your gone. You abandoned me. I
think of it and get a headache. Not a headache. A heartache. I hate you
for leaving yet I love you for you. I hate you and love you at the same
time. That's possible, I guess, since I do.
Everytime I thought of it I wanted to cry. My eyes strained and I
expected tears to flow and stream my mascara down my face but they didn't
come. I don't expect them to anymore. I don't cry anymore. My throat
closes and my head hurts, but I can't cry. I hope you can. I sincerely hope
you can.
Forever and ever,
Anna
