Yes, friends.

Kelly, my best friend forever. Yeah, right. Of course we knew it couldn't last. After all, in high school three years is a big difference in ages. So as you move on, I'd like to say that I've really cared about you when no one else did. And, if necessary, I would sacrifice my pride for you, which I doubt you would do for me. It hurts to lose a best friend. I've never had one for more than a year. Oh well. I'm tough. But what hurts more is that it doesn't seem to hurt you. To you, I'm just, well, I really don't know. But you sure aren't shedding a lot of tears about it. I was actually fine while we were apart for that month, as long as I didn't think about it. But you came home and turned my emotions upside down. Thanks. But no thanks. I guess you can just go on with your life now. Have fun.

Becky. You know, sometimes you scare me. You're one of my closest friends. But when you talk of how nobody cares about you, and if you died no one would miss you, well, to be honest, it's scary. And no matter what I tell you, you don't seem to hear me when I say that I care about you, your family cares, and you have plenty of friends who care. So please, please don't do this to us. Because we do care. I do care. Please care back. I need you. I need your shoulder to cry on. I need your listening ear. I need your sympathy. I need the kinship we have by being so much alike.

Jess. I have failed you in so many ways. I have been stupid, and not realizing what I was doing, betrayed you. I feel like every time I mess up, the wall between us gets thicker. We tore it down before, but I feel now it's thicker than ever. I'm scared we might never be able to penetrate it, or that you don't want to. I see you now. You're very happy, and I'm happy for you, but it's no longer shared happiness. I just can't reach you now, but you can be sure I'll keep trying.

Daniel. How can I even tell you what you've been to me, and what you've taken away. I loved you more than anyone else. I loved you so much that I couldn't see your lies for what they were and didn't give a rat's ass about the truth. You hurt me more than anyone has ever hurt me before. My heart is forever scarred. I don't think your tiny brain even has the capacity to understand what you did to me. But I have to forgive you, because if I don't, how can I expect anyone to forgive me?

Jana. My almost-sister, a friend forever. Heaven knows we fought like cats and dogs at first, but now that we've matured, our shared bossiness is ok. I know I can tell you anything, and I know you'll always be honest with me and listen, as well as tell me how you are and let me be honest with you. You are invaluable to me, and I know you'll always be a part of me, no matter what. Thank you so much for being a part of my life.

All of you mean different things to me, but I'm glad you're there, even if you hurt me. I learned a lot from all of you, and I hope many of you will be my friends for a long time. I really appreciate it.

Love,

Erin