You are what kept me awake last night. I couldn't sleep so I tossed and turned and thought about you.

I thought about what you said when we were talking last... about how you couldn't call me because you have too much of a crush on me and how you've had it for a long time. You know how I feel, so why did you say it? As much as it pleased me to hear it, it was so difficult to accept the fact that you're already attached.

What would you do in my situation? Would you wait? Would you move on? What is it that you want me to do? Avrea, did you know that I have never felt this way about anyone before? Not once in this lifetime have I ever felt so dramatically altered by a few secretly uttered words. The more you pleaded with me to keep it to myself, the more I wanted to shout out to the world how incredibly happy you had made me.

Please call me; make us that much closer to one another. I'm desperate to keep you feeling this way about me. Let him go...does he treat you well? Does he love you enough? Or are you just infatuated with the idea of liking other people while you date others?

I am beyond confusion regarding all of this...I have reached a state of love. If anything, you would be the one having to deal with confusion, and for that I apologize. Maybe it's my fault too...maybe I never should have told you just how much you mean to me, even though we've never met. It's funny how attached we are to each other regardless the fact that we aren't yet friends in the flesh. But who knows.

If this is some type of judgement call (and Lord knows I'm bad at those) and I am completely off the mark about you, then please leave me be. But if you are who you say you are and you want to pursue this interest then by all means contact me, Avrea. It's incredibly difficult to sit here and "love" you this way. Let's meet...don't be afraid. Let's make things right; the way they should be.

Love always,

Gregory