So.There

Do you remember how close we got in the summer? I remember telling you about the ending of my relationship, and you being my good friend was there to comfort me anytime i needed it. Day after day you started calling me to see how I was doing, and because of that we started to feel more for each other than just a friendship. But since I worked a lot, we never took it to the next level. Then one day, you sounded sad on the phone. You said you were confused because you liked another girl besides myself. Being overwhelmed with sadness, I gave you the "go ahead" to take some time from talking with me to make your decision. The absence of your calls added up, and I assumed the worst, so I called you hoping that I was wrong. Unfortunately, I wasn't. You were with her now. It took me some time to accept it, but during that process I was hurting inside.

I remember being insecure about my personality. I felt that i wasn't sweet enough to be your girlfriend. I wasn't sure why you chose her over me, so I fell into a state of depression. I've never felt my heart sink so deep, but I pulled through it and moved on with my life.

Then a month later, I received a call from you. I wasn't sure why you called. A rush of thoughts swirled through my mind. I didn't know if you needed advice for your relationship, needed to vent your problems, or wanted to catch up on things. But what you said was something I wasn't expecting. You told me that you were confused. Right away I knew it concerned me. Then you started babbling about how much prettier I was compared to her. I told you to never say that stuff around me again because of how disrespectful it was, and you aplogized and we ended our conversation. Once again, my heart sank. I felt sorry for your girlfriend, and I was embarassed for you. At this point, I totally lost all feelings for you and moved on once more.

Then on Christmas morning, you texted me a greeting. In return, I greeted back with a simple "Thanks, Merry Christmas to you too." The same thing happened on New Years day. We were neither close nor enemies, and that's how I wanted it. I was feeling so confident then you called me again. Unfortunately, I was feeling so wonderful that day that I decided to pick up the phone. What I got from you was a description of your dream of me. You told me how you kissed me and took advantage of me in it. This really pissed me off because i knew what you were trying to do. You were trying to make it seem like you still were confused about your girlfriend and I. Maybe you were, but honestly I could've cared less. And to make matters worse, you "took advantage" of me in it. Man, you have some real balls to approach me with that kind of crap. Do you think I'm some kind of weakling? Do you honestly think that I would've played along with it and acted like it was no big deal? Hell no! After that phone call, I think you've realized that I am no longer answering your calls nor responding to your texts.

So what I want to say to you now is that I have no interest in you what so ever. So stop calling me to try to lure me into you because it's not going to work. You have a girlfriend. If you're so confused then tell her, don't tell me. It was bad enough that you chose her over me and didn't even inform me, and it's worse how you had the guts to deceive her while trying to sweet talk me. I now know the real you, and you will NEVER EVER gain the feelings I once had for you back.